Update...

whats goin on blogland!? nothing much over here. its been so long since i did a real entry, i figured it was about time.

So the last couple days has been like the best/worst roller coaster ive ever been on:

- I found out that HU cleared my account, but my job tells me that i wont get my check until the 26th.
- I find tix to N.O. for CHEAP! but i dont have the $$$ to buy them at this point.
- Me and my significant other are more back and forth than Aaliyah on a swingset.

Ay Dios Mios...

Hopefully things will be looking up soon, i can finally send transcripts to other schools now that my account at HU is cleared, (isnt that the stupidest rule EVER?) so ive apllied to a few schools in N.O.

Im looking for other places of employment as well, because Fossil isnt giving me ANY type of real-world hours. im kind of glad my paycheck will have 4 weeks on it, just to make it look better. but hopefully ill get accepted to one of the other places im looking at now... (farm fresh, food lion, blockbuster, athletes foot & gamestop to name a few)

we'll see. theres so much else i want to get off my chest here but cant. not until this issue i am currently facing is resolved... i guess i can speak vaugely...

this is KILLING me inside. I try to do so much to make things happen the way I want them, only to be dissapointed and subsequently dissapoint others. I let my feelings about this situation affect the way I act towards people, And I always end up feeling like the bad guy even when Ive been recieving the same treatment. What can i do to make things right when words mean nothing? Action speak volumes, but something always happens to prevent them. Are these SIGNS, or just hurdles i need to clear to real my goal at the finish line? I mean, i'm down to run the race to the end, and im NOT willing to pass the baton, and let someone else walk away with the gold medal. I KNOW thats not how its supposed to be. I feel like I need to take a time out like Zach Morris or a bad Twix commercial. Just to figure out how to turn the tables in my favor. I mean... I feel like now they are. But i've felt this way before. "Ok! I'm gonna do thing #1 and thing #2, and THING #3 will happen!!!" Only to find out that I get evicted, preventing Thing #1, Thing #2required my account at HU to be cleared (which it is now, whoo-hoo!!), and THING #3 was TOTALLY dependent on Things #1 & #2.
(speaking vaguely about this situation is alot harder than i originally thought...)
Now things are looking like im in a better position to make things happen, but it may be too little, too late. except that i dont feel like i did too little but then again, i also didnt acheive my desired results. So where to go from here. Damage control? Fix whats broken. Can this sort of thing be mended? obviously not just by words, but by the aforementioned "Actions". "Actions" that were supposed to take place on friday, only to find out that i wont get my check till the NEXT pay period... (i know i mentioned it before, but its part of the story)

I dunno.

Hopefully the next few days will be a little more inspiring.
For some reason this thought keeps sticking in my head:

"Its always darkest just before the storm"

So I hope that means the sky is gettin ready to open up.

Ay... Time to wrap this up, ya'll can call me Reynolds.
Peace.

P.S. So... i need to get Mos Defs new album. Post haste.

P.P.S. she says i never got her flowers... how quickly we forget...