Relapse/Blackout 2

Lately i feel like she's here but not really... Like she'd rather be somewhere else right now, and she's just biding her time here. :-/ What do i do? Any attempt to do anything with her is waived off. And when i do manage to peake her interest, i screw it up so bad that we end up arguing about my 'not taking her into consideration' when everything i do is in her name!! 

and yes, i get frustrated when my attempts to spend time together are not even given a first chance, let alone a second. Which is very childish of me, but whatever i'll get over it.

Is it me? What am i boring or something? Please let me know. All i know is for the past 2 or 3 days, i can barely get her attention away from this damn computer. As if twitter, facebook, and MTO held the key to happiness. i dunno, maybe they do. but as of now they capture her eyes so much that ive nearly forgotten what they look like. 

*sigh*

and then in the end, im STILL the bad guy for getting upset at this. the bad guy for wanting to spend a little time doing something i enjoy with her. after she sat on the computer all day IGNORING me, i ask her to sit down and play a little video game with me, and al of a sudden its "why do we always have to do what you want to do?" I go, i do everything she asks, and yet its still not enough. It never is... What more do i have to do? What more can i do?

Peace...