the sound of your voice painted on my memories...

So i'm reading all of my old OLD blogs on zanga and i started to see all of the shit i was so sad and depressed over was so... pointless. like shit i have forgotten about now. made me think " so the shit i get sad about now... is this pointless too?" cuz im just gonna forget about it in a few months probably... UGH, those blogs were scary. As i was reading them it didnt even feel like i was the one who wrote them.

I also realized what musical taste i had back in the day. I cant remember whens the last time I listened to a Linkin Park Album. I also forgot how fuckin' lyrical Mike Chinoda is/was... Check it:




"perform labotomies with telekenetic psychology" What?!? ILL!!! lol


saw some funny aim covos that i posted too:

HughJazzJohnson9: Maybe
***********: no maybe
***********: u have a problem
HughJazzJohnson9: is it a crime to bee addicted to a TV show
***********: is it a crime to be a alcoholic?
HughJazzJohnson9: well watching family guy doesnt intoxicate you
HughJazzJohnson9: although
HughJazzJohnson9: it does make you feel all tingly inside
***********: LMAO
***********: yeah hun
***********: u got a problem
HughJazzJohnson9: well
HughJazzJohnson9: there aare ppl worse off than me
HughJazzJohnson9: i havent went out and bought any merchandise
HughJazzJohnson9: although
HughJazzJohnson9: i do plan to
**********: tryflin

I guess i did have a little family guy obsession goin on, huh? lol... cant really say that a bad thing though

...*sigh*...

my sleep patterns have been horribly disturbed over the past week. not saying they were all that great in the first place, but now one night, i'll sleep all day and the next im up for 2 days straight. I dont know what to do to get them back on track. when im not sleepy i cant sleep. but i cant make myself wake up when im sleeping too long. for real though, i slept for 13 hours yesterday. Straight. now granted, I wasn't feeling good. and i was exhausted, but still... 13 HOURS?!? Thats what i call sleeping recklessly. lol. i dunno, Nai will be here in a few days. hopefully she can put me to sleep at a decent hour. ;-)

my sister has been in NC for the past 2 weeks and has SEVERELY overstayed her welcome.

so heres the story:
she calls herself visiting an old friend from middle school. we'll call him (dont ask) "Dave". "Dave" invites her down to stay at his mothers house, not taking into account the fact that 1.) he didnt even ask his mother and 2.) him and his mother are staying in a hotel temporarily b/c they was a fire at their house. Now, knowing this, why would you want to go and stay with someone who is in that type of situation? I understand seeing family for maybe a weekend, but a hotel room is way too confined to be staying with someone. ESPECIALLY not for 2 weeks!

So his mother calls my mother this morning. I picked up the phone at first, and she really had an attitude with my mom. keep in mind she doesnt even know that "Dave" invited my sister. She also doesnt know that me and my mother BOTH told my sister she shouldnt go, given their current living situation. But you cant tell swiss anything cuz she always "knows what she's doing", but she hates i told you so moments. (i'd be rich right now if i had a dollar... u know how the old cliche goes, lol.) she had NO INTENTIONS of coming back until she goes into the military... for someone as smart as her, she really makes some dumb decisions. but she thinks she's in "LOVE" so instead of attending one of the MANY schools that are practically begging her to be a part of their program, she would rather go into the military b/c that way, her and boyfriend can be together. Mind you, this idiot has failed so many times that hes about to age out of NPS systems... I mean he would age out if he hadn't of DROPPED OUT!! I gotta get rid of this chump... no aspirations, no goals. He doesnt even have a plan to get his GED. Im sorry, but he's just not good enough for my sister. its sad when you can see the negative effects of one person on another, with no positive effects to outweigh the bad.

*gotta cut the comp off... bad storm outside... finish later*

so yeah, i gave my sis some money to catch a bus back to VA. She HATES admitting when she made a mistake. She'll learn, one day... hopefully

so... its 9:30. almost birthday time for me. ...yay... <~~~(see my enthusiasm?)

i didnt realize how long this figgin post was... so i'll wrap it up here.

Peace.