wow... you never know what you'll find when you go back through your old emails...
i was looking at them today and ran across this little gem i thought was lost forever.
its a personal narrative i had to do for one of my english classes back in the day, it was a wednesday, lol
(according to Dane Cook anytime someone says "back in the day" they are always referring to wednesday... lmao. i dunno, if i gotta explain the joke i guess that takes some of the humor out of it.)
Anywho... without further adieu...
“William, how many times have I told you to stop swinging things around? You’re going to hurt somebody.”
“But look Ma, I’m a ninja!”
“William--“
“Watch this!!”
“--Look out for your sister!!”
Before that moment, I was probably one of the meanest older brothers in history. After that fated incident, I was very overprotective of my younger sister. I guess when you see someone at their weakest and most vulnerable state; you’d do anything to keep them from feeling like that again.
When my sister was born, I was only four years old. I was still too young to even understand where children came from. But when my ‘new sister’ was finally brought home, needless to say I was less than thrilled. One thing that really stood out was something my mother said to me after the new baby was settled in her room. I specifically remember my mother saying this. “You have to look out for her you know. She’s not as big as most babies. When she gets older, you have to make sure she doesn’t get picked on by the bigger kids.” Unfortunately, I didn’t take that to heart until about 3 years later.
It was a nice day, so my mother decided to take my sister and me to the local pizzeria, our “hangout spot”. For some reason, I decided to pick up this thick plastic piping. I was into martial arts and Power Rangers as a child, so I began to pretend I could do the moves. Not heeding the warnings of my ever-so-watchful mother, I spun, twirled, and attacked thin air. As I turned around, I failed to notice my little sister standing off to my right. As the pipe I held came into contact with the left side of her face, I froze. Within the next three seconds, I came to a terrible realization. How horrible of a brother must I be to let something like this happen? Blood, tears, and a trip to the emergency room immediately followed. That could have possibly been one of the longest car rides in my life. I sat in the backseat hanging my head in shame, trying to hide the fact that I was on the verge of tears. The emergency room was even worse. As I sat in the lobby, all I could hear was the screaming of a three-year-old receiving medical stitches near her left eye. An inch and a half more and she would have been blinded. On the drive home, nobody spoke. No radio, we just rode quietly, the silence broken intermittently by the sniffles and whimpers of the injured.
So I became what I felt was the ideal big brother. Of course we had the occasional spat, but let anyone else mess with her and all she had to do was tell me. I dealt with my share of neighborhood bullies, mainly consisting of boys who were at that age where they liked to pick on little girls. Dealing with these boys was easy, but every once in a while I would have to protect myself against their older and much bigger family members. I rarely came out victorious in these situations, but no pain could match how bad I felt for what I had done.
Thinking back, it seems like it was all a dream. But that dream is brought to reality every time I look at the scar in the corner of her left eye. It hurts to even glance at it, small as it may be. We haven’t spoken about that incident for quite some time now. It has always seemed like one of those things that we try to forget. But I can never forget, that was the defining moment that made me realize how much I love my little sister.
Peace.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
ABC poem
Exploring new forms of poetry in the Soul Of A Poet group on campus...
this one is called the ABC poem...
Anytime, Anyplace we can get it jumpin
Break of dawn, we still pumpin
Cant stop, wont stop
Damn, if these sheets could talk. Her
Elegance radiates through my thoughts
For days on end
And ive been on like a haiku binge for the past week... im hooked, lol
you and i are like/ the student and the teacher/ bow to your sensei #haiku LMAO!!
@Camille_Rivers breathe deeply in it / for it is good for your soul / dont ever let go
A full moon tonight./ i wonder what mysteries/ the night will bring me.
The world is different/ through these city bus windows./ my people struggle
Natures resilience./ it is unfathomable./ trees grow from concrete.
im not gonna sit/ around and waste my precious/ divine energy... tryna explain and/ being afraid of what you/ think is wrong with me #haiku
complacency you/ ain't gonna get me, oh no/ i gotta get up
How can i pitch? We/ were supposed to be on the/ same team. Remember? #haiku
When im at the plate/ i'll bring you home. L.B.I./ love batted in. Muah. #haiku
@Mz_Ki change your looking glass/ ugliness we think we see/is usually false
@Mz_Ki Shadows mean no harm/ only mirror and mimick/ fear nothing track star #haiku
@Camille_Rivers keep your head skyward/ looking down leads to falling/ but never fear it
I feel you drifting/ further away and i won't/ just let it happen #haiku
Stop running away/Your feet have to be tired/ you can rest them here #Haiku
its easy for you/ to erase me so quickly/ you're stained on my heart
I saw it coming/ i was just climbing back but/ you gave up on me
If im the target,/ Lock and load. If you don't mind,/ aim straight for the heart
one day you're gonna/ look back and say to yourself/ "i treated him bad"
I guess following/ your heart can lead you down some/ pretty dark alleys
Try to forget you/ but youre all I wanna do/ I can do better/ but theres no one quite like you
To go back in time/ hindsight is 20-20/ put your glasses on #haiku
Wanted u with me/ but u gave up so quickly/ why did you forfeit? #haiku
She says she wants me/ but she wants that old thing back/ im a changed man babe #haiku
Seeking out others./ an ineffective measure/ in finding true self #haiku
Smoke, schemes and mirrors/ sovereignty as a nation/ is an illusion #haiku
One sip of your soul/ is worth my weight in gold. I/ have expensive taste #haiku
Take me as i am/ or you'll have nothing at all/ no one is perfect #haiku
I hate the fact that/ papa was a rolling stone/ youre not a real man #haiku
Why the sacrifice?/ was what you gained worth all of/ the things you gave up? #haiku
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Smh
this one is called the ABC poem...
Anytime, Anyplace we can get it jumpin
Break of dawn, we still pumpin
Cant stop, wont stop
Damn, if these sheets could talk. Her
Elegance radiates through my thoughts
For days on end
And ive been on like a haiku binge for the past week... im hooked, lol
you and i are like/ the student and the teacher/ bow to your sensei #haiku LMAO!!
@Camille_Rivers breathe deeply in it / for it is good for your soul / dont ever let go
A full moon tonight./ i wonder what mysteries/ the night will bring me.
The world is different/ through these city bus windows./ my people struggle
Natures resilience./ it is unfathomable./ trees grow from concrete.
im not gonna sit/ around and waste my precious/ divine energy... tryna explain and/ being afraid of what you/ think is wrong with me #haiku
complacency you/ ain't gonna get me, oh no/ i gotta get up
How can i pitch? We/ were supposed to be on the/ same team. Remember? #haiku
When im at the plate/ i'll bring you home. L.B.I./ love batted in. Muah. #haiku
@Mz_Ki change your looking glass/ ugliness we think we see/is usually false
@Mz_Ki Shadows mean no harm/ only mirror and mimick/ fear nothing track star #haiku
@Camille_Rivers keep your head skyward/ looking down leads to falling/ but never fear it
I feel you drifting/ further away and i won't/ just let it happen #haiku
Stop running away/Your feet have to be tired/ you can rest them here #Haiku
its easy for you/ to erase me so quickly/ you're stained on my heart
I saw it coming/ i was just climbing back but/ you gave up on me
If im the target,/ Lock and load. If you don't mind,/ aim straight for the heart
one day you're gonna/ look back and say to yourself/ "i treated him bad"
I guess following/ your heart can lead you down some/ pretty dark alleys
Try to forget you/ but youre all I wanna do/ I can do better/ but theres no one quite like you
To go back in time/ hindsight is 20-20/ put your glasses on #haiku
Wanted u with me/ but u gave up so quickly/ why did you forfeit? #haiku
She says she wants me/ but she wants that old thing back/ im a changed man babe #haiku
Seeking out others./ an ineffective measure/ in finding true self #haiku
Smoke, schemes and mirrors/ sovereignty as a nation/ is an illusion #haiku
One sip of your soul/ is worth my weight in gold. I/ have expensive taste #haiku
Take me as i am/ or you'll have nothing at all/ no one is perfect #haiku
I hate the fact that/ papa was a rolling stone/ youre not a real man #haiku
Why the sacrifice?/ was what you gained worth all of/ the things you gave up? #haiku
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Monday, November 23, 2009
...
Charles Hamilton - The Honeymoon Is Over
I swear this is the realest love song I have ever written
This aint a love song, it’s a real song
[Chorus]
Baby, come back
Any kind of fool could see (Uh, it’s Charles Hamilton)
There was something in everything about you
Baby, come back
You can blame it all on me (Blame me, Right? Shit.)
I was wrong and I just cant live without you
[Verse 1]
Well well, here are another argument
Yeah I know, its my fault I always start the shit
This some retarded shit, calling bitches yamps on my blog and shit
Why do I think that’s not the heart of it?
You have a problem with you not me
Cause you got me, I need you aqui (here)
I look at other women and it’s you I see
I do not need to be abused by thee
You do shit for my attention, its senseless
You’re mine; period check the end of the sentence
Simone, took up so much space in my dome
I forget my own face when I roam. I’m on now
Star time, hard times are past me
I'm the driver; cryin’ time is in the backseat
So why do you insist on being in the back of me?
And you get tight when other women wanna ask for me
[Chorus]
Baby, come back
Any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
Baby, come back
You can blame it all on me
I was wrong and I just cant live without you
[Verse 2]
Before I met you, I caught mad bodies
You mad, probably, but they mad they aint got me
Copy? I told yo ass, “Sit there cocky”
But nah you wanna black, and now you wanna chat
With some other niggas sending texts in the phone I bought you
How I know you aint showing them tricks that I taught you?
Going to see them niggas in the shit that I bought you
If I wasn’t Charles I would flip and Ike on you
This is my heart you playin’ around with
When niggas eyeball you, they want a round fist
But you’re not used to the attention I guess
As if your hands aint on that beating shit in my chest
Bitch I'm obsessed, getting no rest, turning down celebs
Burn an ounce to the head; I’m certain I’m bout to just
Let go, but no. I love you
But being alone is something that I can’t adjust to
[Chorus]
Baby, come back
Any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
Baby, come back
You can blame it all on me
I was wrong and I just cant live without you
[Verse 3]
Keep promising better you gon’ be better
Cause you know me better, on some O.D. letter
But I feel so alone sometimes with you
So much so I bet you think I wrote this shit to diss you
This instrumental, was made out of pain
That you caused, bitch stay out my brain
Stay in my heart, I gave you a part
Love 2.0, I'm state of the art
The only thing that changed is the way that I talk
Everyday you’re in my thoughts, How could you say that I'm lost?
You call me selfish, shit I was before I met you
I let you in, how could you Not feel special?
Don’t wanna hurt you, feels like I might
To me real I can fight, but im a man kinda fly
If something does happen, blame it on rap
You can hate me I'm whack, but imma still say…
[Chorus]
Baby, come back
Any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
(Tough love, Toughen up. I love you, Charles Hamilton, One)
Baby, come back
You can blame it all on me
I was wrong and I just cant live without you
Baby, come back
Any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
Baby, come back
You can blame it all on me
I was wrong and I just cant live without you
Friday, November 13, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
How many times am i gonna post the same poem?
Until it stops being so true.
Until i stop having things to add to it.
Until it stops plaguing my mind each and every waking moment...
"Lets Spend Some Time"
Lets spend some time.
Let my... eyes inhale in your divine beauty,
because truly the smell of you on my pillow
is what helps me wake up in the morning,
reminiscing on the night before. You---
Might be more to me than some jump off,
i dont know maybe my heart has gone soft,
but i cant let this one slip away....
Is this the day where i wake up expecting to
see you, only to breathe through a sigh of
despair when you're not there?
I need you and its not fair.
From here the road to the future is not clear,
And in the past my heart has fought fear.
A losing battle, this is proving to be the
Toughest thus far.
But I WILL win this war.
Still… She belongs to no one.
You just try to hold on to her for as long as humanly possible acting on whatever feels logical.
I'm bout to go cool out to the mellow jazz soundtrack at Sweet Lorraine’s and try to forget the pain lodged in my cerebral membrane the thought of her leaving leaves me insane
the first time I felt this I nearly cried
and on the second time around I kneeled and died
from a feeling that cant be avoided by shielding eyes.
Tell me, what exactly is the appeal of lies?
I.. know that nigga cant make you as thrilled as I… Did.
So now what I don’t have, I must give
I left my heart unguarded when I gave you that rib.
But..
It’s yours, keep it.
And maybe one day it will be something that she cuddles up to sleep with
And recollect on the mornings I would greet her with a deep kiss…
Sweet lips.
That’s what I used to call her
And if all else falters. I still have the memories of our plans to stand up on that alter.
See, she gives me something worth fighting for.
Hearing her voice is like experiencing the tightest chord
played by a blind braided up man from Saginaw, Michigan.
God damn, baby you make me wonder.
You can see me under my societal shields strategically placed for saving face.
Your penetrating glare commands attention with a blazing pace, now I'm missing your amazing grace.
The memories ingrained on my gray matter may shatter what’s left of my heart, but...
I knew that from the start.
Peace.
Until i stop having things to add to it.
Until it stops plaguing my mind each and every waking moment...
"Lets Spend Some Time"
Lets spend some time.
Let my... eyes inhale in your divine beauty,
because truly the smell of you on my pillow
is what helps me wake up in the morning,
reminiscing on the night before. You---
Might be more to me than some jump off,
i dont know maybe my heart has gone soft,
but i cant let this one slip away....
Is this the day where i wake up expecting to
see you, only to breathe through a sigh of
despair when you're not there?
I need you and its not fair.
From here the road to the future is not clear,
And in the past my heart has fought fear.
A losing battle, this is proving to be the
Toughest thus far.
But I WILL win this war.
Still… She belongs to no one.
You just try to hold on to her for as long as humanly possible acting on whatever feels logical.
I'm bout to go cool out to the mellow jazz soundtrack at Sweet Lorraine’s and try to forget the pain lodged in my cerebral membrane the thought of her leaving leaves me insane
the first time I felt this I nearly cried
and on the second time around I kneeled and died
from a feeling that cant be avoided by shielding eyes.
Tell me, what exactly is the appeal of lies?
I.. know that nigga cant make you as thrilled as I… Did.
So now what I don’t have, I must give
I left my heart unguarded when I gave you that rib.
But..
It’s yours, keep it.
And maybe one day it will be something that she cuddles up to sleep with
And recollect on the mornings I would greet her with a deep kiss…
Sweet lips.
That’s what I used to call her
And if all else falters. I still have the memories of our plans to stand up on that alter.
See, she gives me something worth fighting for.
Hearing her voice is like experiencing the tightest chord
played by a blind braided up man from Saginaw, Michigan.
God damn, baby you make me wonder.
You can see me under my societal shields strategically placed for saving face.
Your penetrating glare commands attention with a blazing pace, now I'm missing your amazing grace.
The memories ingrained on my gray matter may shatter what’s left of my heart, but...
I knew that from the start.
Peace.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Damn Blog abuse...
I know I know... i never write in this thing anymore. and i only ever visit this damn site when i wanna get up on my soapbox and say some shit... this is no different, lol. nothin but another RT rant...
-what’s the purpose of burning a cd with all the hot new songs when they play the same list of songs on the radio?
-This Kamaal the abstract joint is some fire though... gotta break the monotony #cmonson
-its restoring my faith in hip-hop right now that something that was shelved for so long can come out years l8r & still sound relevant
-Ah... now THIS is Hip-Hop... I dunno what them otha cats talkin' bout!
-nowadays its like if you aint talkin some "i got money, i have a cool car, fly clothes, and plenty of bitches" you gets no play...
-get up and start rappin about unification, love and happiness and niggas look at you crazy...
-gotta break this gangsta rapper syndrome...
-So i have this theory that the music industry is evil, and that the "powers at be" purposefully select certain artists over others depending on their content and what message they want to send to people.
-the power of music is incredible, but when used for evil, it takes the soul out of it... hence "hip hop is dead"
-has anyone else noticed the lack of positivity in the music biz as of late?
-Dre 3000!!! WE NEED YOU!!!
-@FatBellyBella WE NEED YOU!!
-@realtalibkweli WE NEED YOU!!!
-@JayElectronica WE NEED YOU!!!
-@questlove WE NEED YOU!!!
-We also need College Dropout era Kanye West
-We need an A Tribe Called Quest reunion!!
-We need another Aquemini!!!
-Fuck a Soulja Boy, Fuck a Gucci Mane, Fuck a OJ the Juiceman, Fuck a Plies... the list goes on...
-When the song getting the most spins on the radio is "Let's All Get Wasted" we have arrived at a sad place america... just sad
-Y'all dont hear me though...
-i could go on and on about this topic, but id just be wastin my breath... or my fingertips at least, lol
-Oh, and lest we forget @Haywood83 WE NEED YOU!!!
-whew... its been a minute since i went on a twitter rant, lol
-what’s the purpose of burning a cd with all the hot new songs when they play the same list of songs on the radio?
-This Kamaal the abstract joint is some fire though... gotta break the monotony #cmonson
-its restoring my faith in hip-hop right now that something that was shelved for so long can come out years l8r & still sound relevant
-Ah... now THIS is Hip-Hop... I dunno what them otha cats talkin' bout!
-nowadays its like if you aint talkin some "i got money, i have a cool car, fly clothes, and plenty of bitches" you gets no play...
-get up and start rappin about unification, love and happiness and niggas look at you crazy...
-gotta break this gangsta rapper syndrome...
-So i have this theory that the music industry is evil, and that the "powers at be" purposefully select certain artists over others depending on their content and what message they want to send to people.
-the power of music is incredible, but when used for evil, it takes the soul out of it... hence "hip hop is dead"
-has anyone else noticed the lack of positivity in the music biz as of late?
-Dre 3000!!! WE NEED YOU!!!
-@FatBellyBella WE NEED YOU!!
-@realtalibkweli WE NEED YOU!!!
-@JayElectronica WE NEED YOU!!!
-@questlove WE NEED YOU!!!
-We also need College Dropout era Kanye West
-We need an A Tribe Called Quest reunion!!
-We need another Aquemini!!!
-Fuck a Soulja Boy, Fuck a Gucci Mane, Fuck a OJ the Juiceman, Fuck a Plies... the list goes on...
-When the song getting the most spins on the radio is "Let's All Get Wasted" we have arrived at a sad place america... just sad
-Y'all dont hear me though...
-i could go on and on about this topic, but id just be wastin my breath... or my fingertips at least, lol
-Oh, and lest we forget @Haywood83 WE NEED YOU!!!
-whew... its been a minute since i went on a twitter rant, lol
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Read these

The disrespect our President receives is appalling to say the least. Many say that this disrespect has noting to do with the fact that President Obama happens to be Black. I beg to differ. Following are a couple articles that bring up similar viewpoints.
Joe Wilson:
http://www.opednews.com/articles/The-Racial-Context-for-Joe-by-The-Project-on-Rac-090910-824.html
Some people felt it was inappropriate for our President to speak with a group of children. Something past presidents have ALWAYS done:
http://raceproject.org/2009/09/dont-talk-to-strangers-obama-as-other.html
Of course the White House has to remain neutral on the matter:
http://thecaucus.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/09/16/white-house-deflects-charges-of-racism-leveled-at-opponents/
Some of the anti-Obama signs seen at rallies across the country:
http://thinkprogress.org/2009/09/12/912-signs/
Compare and contrast...
Kanye/ Taylor Swift
http://harryallen.info/?p=5154
http://harryallen.info/?p=5249
Peace
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Blog Abuse RT
"It been a long time/ I shouldnt have left you... without a dope {blog} to step to"
(c) Eric B. & Rakim
damn. havent posted in a LONG while. im just RTing though... maybe ill be inspired to post after homework...
-damn... racism is alive and kickin i tell ya!! over something like interrupting a speech for a pointless award. http://bit.ly/3jbX5U
-as rude as it was, does that mean he should be hung by the KKK? some people think so... "racism still alive they just be concealin it"
-its a crying shame i tell you... seems like they've been lookin for someone to hate ever since Obama got elected...
-They're goin at MR. Obama pretty tough too. Ive never seen so much disrespect to the president of the United States in my LIFE...
-Joe Wilson needs to be relieved of his duties...
-Question: When Joe Wilson interrupted the PRESIDENT why didnt people care? But when Kanye cut in it was the worst thing on the planet? SMDH.
-Why is it that in this country we place so much importance on what the fuck CELEBRITIES are doing?
-And the only time we tune in to what the people who are REALLY runnin shit are doing is when they have a Spitzer/ Clinton type scandal...
-lmao. in other words, we so caught up on whos runnin the town, we're not even paying attention to whos runnin the country...
-yall dont hear me tho.
Or do yall? I just think its interesting to compare and contrast the two incidents. I mean, Barack Obama is the PRESIDENT of one of the richest and most powerful nations in this world. Joe Wilson interrupted a speech about the very pressing issue of a national health care. Something that millions of uninsured people (like myself) can benefit from for years to come. Kanye West interrupted an acceptance speech for an award that will not matter next year when someone else wins it.
Since when did people start watchin the VMAs ANYWAY?
And since when have we put so much weight on famous people that this Kanye/ Taylor situation could shadow something like the Obama/ Wilson dilemma?
On top of that... Kanye didnt even bomb the stage that well... ODB still holds that title for his Grammy Interruption.
At least ODB said something more than "Beyonce had the best video of all time" which is NOT true. How are you gonna go in on someone elses loss like that? I can see if YOU lost to someone, but where the hell do you get off?
That Wilson outburst got swept under the rug real quick, but white people are PISSED about this Taylor Swift thing. som much that some are tweeting the Kanye should be hung by the KKK. By the same logic, Joe Wilson should be shot by the BPP (not saying go do it, just pointing out a flawed logic!!)
The Wilson incident is alot worse to me however. I feel like no one would DARE disrespect a white President during a nationally/globally televised address of that nature. I mean, for an example go back just a year ago and take a look at dear old President Bush. Bush told SEVERAL lies over the course of his presidency. (The 9/11 conspiracy, The Katrina Conspiracy, Reasons for going into Iraq, etc. just to name a few) And I'm SURE there were a few people who felt very strongly against what the man was saying, ut they still held their composure and did not disrespect the man in front of millions.
And to get angry enough now over something that could HELP MILLIONS to yell "you lie" during a national address bewilders me. I guess some people only get seriously passionate about how the system is working when it isnt working for them. But when blood oil dollars are keeping them in office and in that upper 10th percentile, they could care less what happens to the other 90%.
Ay! ok i need to stop and do homework, otherwise i'll be stuck here all night. lol. I guess i'll wrap this up by saying that we need to take notice of the things that we as a society place Value in. I'm really beginning to weigh the importance of certain things i do in my life. Like is watching the latest happenings on Tiny & Toya all that necessary when the heathcare reform speech i missed is 2 channels up?
No.
Not really.
I gotta go with what effects me most. Toya learning to swim is not comparable to me knowing if i can go to the hospital or not after i drown. I guess its called growing up... Ugh, and I hate to say that.
Some people may disagree, but hey this is MY blog. lol.
Till next time,
Peace.
(c) Eric B. & Rakim
damn. havent posted in a LONG while. im just RTing though... maybe ill be inspired to post after homework...
-damn... racism is alive and kickin i tell ya!! over something like interrupting a speech for a pointless award. http://bit.ly/3jbX5U
-as rude as it was, does that mean he should be hung by the KKK? some people think so... "racism still alive they just be concealin it"
-its a crying shame i tell you... seems like they've been lookin for someone to hate ever since Obama got elected...
-They're goin at MR. Obama pretty tough too. Ive never seen so much disrespect to the president of the United States in my LIFE...
-Joe Wilson needs to be relieved of his duties...
-Question: When Joe Wilson interrupted the PRESIDENT why didnt people care? But when Kanye cut in it was the worst thing on the planet? SMDH.
-Why is it that in this country we place so much importance on what the fuck CELEBRITIES are doing?
-And the only time we tune in to what the people who are REALLY runnin shit are doing is when they have a Spitzer/ Clinton type scandal...
-lmao. in other words, we so caught up on whos runnin the town, we're not even paying attention to whos runnin the country...
-yall dont hear me tho.
Or do yall? I just think its interesting to compare and contrast the two incidents. I mean, Barack Obama is the PRESIDENT of one of the richest and most powerful nations in this world. Joe Wilson interrupted a speech about the very pressing issue of a national health care. Something that millions of uninsured people (like myself) can benefit from for years to come. Kanye West interrupted an acceptance speech for an award that will not matter next year when someone else wins it.
Since when did people start watchin the VMAs ANYWAY?
And since when have we put so much weight on famous people that this Kanye/ Taylor situation could shadow something like the Obama/ Wilson dilemma?
On top of that... Kanye didnt even bomb the stage that well... ODB still holds that title for his Grammy Interruption.
At least ODB said something more than "Beyonce had the best video of all time" which is NOT true. How are you gonna go in on someone elses loss like that? I can see if YOU lost to someone, but where the hell do you get off?
That Wilson outburst got swept under the rug real quick, but white people are PISSED about this Taylor Swift thing. som much that some are tweeting the Kanye should be hung by the KKK. By the same logic, Joe Wilson should be shot by the BPP (not saying go do it, just pointing out a flawed logic!!)
The Wilson incident is alot worse to me however. I feel like no one would DARE disrespect a white President during a nationally/globally televised address of that nature. I mean, for an example go back just a year ago and take a look at dear old President Bush. Bush told SEVERAL lies over the course of his presidency. (The 9/11 conspiracy, The Katrina Conspiracy, Reasons for going into Iraq, etc. just to name a few) And I'm SURE there were a few people who felt very strongly against what the man was saying, ut they still held their composure and did not disrespect the man in front of millions.
And to get angry enough now over something that could HELP MILLIONS to yell "you lie" during a national address bewilders me. I guess some people only get seriously passionate about how the system is working when it isnt working for them. But when blood oil dollars are keeping them in office and in that upper 10th percentile, they could care less what happens to the other 90%.
Ay! ok i need to stop and do homework, otherwise i'll be stuck here all night. lol. I guess i'll wrap this up by saying that we need to take notice of the things that we as a society place Value in. I'm really beginning to weigh the importance of certain things i do in my life. Like is watching the latest happenings on Tiny & Toya all that necessary when the heathcare reform speech i missed is 2 channels up?
No.
Not really.
I gotta go with what effects me most. Toya learning to swim is not comparable to me knowing if i can go to the hospital or not after i drown. I guess its called growing up... Ugh, and I hate to say that.
Some people may disagree, but hey this is MY blog. lol.
Till next time,
Peace.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Run To The Sun...
1. Put Your iTunes on Shuffle. (Or whatever your music- player- device of choice happens to be. You may replace "iTunes" with "Windows Media Player" if this makes you more comfortable.)
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Tag at least 10 friends.
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because fun pointlessness spreads like a virus.
1. If someone says “is this ok?” you say…
Diamonds are forever - Kanye
2. How would you describe yourself?
Spread For Me – Andre 3000
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Cruisin In the ATL - Outkast
4. How do you feel today?
Rising Down – The Roots
5. What’s your life’s purpose?
Before You Walk Out Of My Life - Monica
6. What is your motto?
Intro [To Roc La Familia] – Jay-Z
7.What do your friends think of you?
A Day In The Life of Benjamin Andre
8.What do you think of your parents?
You Aint Right – Janet Jackson [pops]
9. What do you think about very often?
Knowing – Big Boi
10.What is 2+2?
Run 4 Cover – Meth & Red
11. What do you think of your best friend?
Smile Lines - Incubus
12. What do you think of the person you like?
Squares & Cubes – Sound Tribe Sector 9
13. What is your life story?
What’ll I Do – Janet Jackson
14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Politics – Lil Wayne
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Human – Lil Wayne
16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Its Your Life – Ja Rule
17. What will they play at your funeral?
Pain – Puff Daddy & the Fam
18. What is your hobby/ interest?
Brat – Green Day
19. What is your biggest fear?
Sock It To Me – Missy & Da Brat
20. What is your biggest secret?
Medicine Ball - Eminem
21. What do you think of your friends?
In The End – Linkin Park
22. What is your fashion like?
Done It Now – Lil Wayne & T.I.
23. What do you hate?
No Work – Queen Latifah
24. What is you favorite thing to do in your free time?
Put It On Me – Ja Rule & Vida
25. What are you thinking right now?
Under the Influence – Eminem & D-12
26. What are you most proud of?
Gangsta Bitch - Eve
27. Favorite phrase?
Crank that Soulja Boy [Lie!!]
28. What is you favorite song?
Differences – Ginuwine
29. What is your best friend like?
Cant Believe It – T-Pain
30. You receive a phone call at 4 in the morning. What do you do?
Set It Out – Nappy Roots
31. What is your greatest accomplishment?
I Shot The Sherriff – Bob Marley
32. What is you most embarrassing moment?
2 Tears In A Bucket – Ryde or Die Vol. 2
33. What did you do last summer?
We Some Dogs – Method Man
34. What will you post this as?
Run To The Sun – N*E*R*D
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Tag at least 10 friends.
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because fun pointlessness spreads like a virus.
1. If someone says “is this ok?” you say…
Diamonds are forever - Kanye
2. How would you describe yourself?
Spread For Me – Andre 3000
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Cruisin In the ATL - Outkast
4. How do you feel today?
Rising Down – The Roots
5. What’s your life’s purpose?
Before You Walk Out Of My Life - Monica
6. What is your motto?
Intro [To Roc La Familia] – Jay-Z
7.What do your friends think of you?
A Day In The Life of Benjamin Andre
8.What do you think of your parents?
You Aint Right – Janet Jackson [pops]
9. What do you think about very often?
Knowing – Big Boi
10.What is 2+2?
Run 4 Cover – Meth & Red
11. What do you think of your best friend?
Smile Lines - Incubus
12. What do you think of the person you like?
Squares & Cubes – Sound Tribe Sector 9
13. What is your life story?
What’ll I Do – Janet Jackson
14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Politics – Lil Wayne
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Human – Lil Wayne
16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Its Your Life – Ja Rule
17. What will they play at your funeral?
Pain – Puff Daddy & the Fam
18. What is your hobby/ interest?
Brat – Green Day
19. What is your biggest fear?
Sock It To Me – Missy & Da Brat
20. What is your biggest secret?
Medicine Ball - Eminem
21. What do you think of your friends?
In The End – Linkin Park
22. What is your fashion like?
Done It Now – Lil Wayne & T.I.
23. What do you hate?
No Work – Queen Latifah
24. What is you favorite thing to do in your free time?
Put It On Me – Ja Rule & Vida
25. What are you thinking right now?
Under the Influence – Eminem & D-12
26. What are you most proud of?
Gangsta Bitch - Eve
27. Favorite phrase?
Crank that Soulja Boy [Lie!!]
28. What is you favorite song?
Differences – Ginuwine
29. What is your best friend like?
Cant Believe It – T-Pain
30. You receive a phone call at 4 in the morning. What do you do?
Set It Out – Nappy Roots
31. What is your greatest accomplishment?
I Shot The Sherriff – Bob Marley
32. What is you most embarrassing moment?
2 Tears In A Bucket – Ryde or Die Vol. 2
33. What did you do last summer?
We Some Dogs – Method Man
34. What will you post this as?
Run To The Sun – N*E*R*D
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
My YP4 poem
“Call to action”
Living under an assumed identity this double consciousness was created and is upheld by the same oppressive regime that still reigns to this day.
A regime that sparked an idea and became pregnant in it, giving birth to the very concepts that have held us captive since conception.
A verbal erection encapsulating us within the confines of societies womb.
Consequential climactic cataclysms creating the constant decline of a people whose destiny is aligned with the stars -- not behind bars.
They say we come from the motherland but they’d rather see my brothers and me trapped in the sands of time.
Soldiers and believers of a dream dreamt by millions that has yet to manifest, but my people are still here fighting to stand the test of a raw war with a double edged sword, leaving them rich and greedy and us deprived and needy. To survive while pleading for a hand to assist, missed by the eyes of a society that lies and pretends to be blind. Any true seer would stop and shed a tear after witnessing those lost somewhere between love and fear.
So we must stand!
Not AGAINST those who oppose, but for what we believe IN!!
For:
Slave Hymns and Native Winds
Gay Rights and Civil Fights
Radicalism and Afrocentrism
H.I.V. and Children In Need
Feminism and Student Activism
Immigration and Gentrification
Change the Station!!
Burst bubbles and start trouble!!
Protest with No rest!!
Take a stand, we all fight for the common good.
Take these plans to your families, your campus, your hood.
“Your Community is My Community”
“Light up the darkness”
Peace.
Living under an assumed identity this double consciousness was created and is upheld by the same oppressive regime that still reigns to this day.
A regime that sparked an idea and became pregnant in it, giving birth to the very concepts that have held us captive since conception.
A verbal erection encapsulating us within the confines of societies womb.
Consequential climactic cataclysms creating the constant decline of a people whose destiny is aligned with the stars -- not behind bars.
They say we come from the motherland but they’d rather see my brothers and me trapped in the sands of time.
Soldiers and believers of a dream dreamt by millions that has yet to manifest, but my people are still here fighting to stand the test of a raw war with a double edged sword, leaving them rich and greedy and us deprived and needy. To survive while pleading for a hand to assist, missed by the eyes of a society that lies and pretends to be blind. Any true seer would stop and shed a tear after witnessing those lost somewhere between love and fear.
So we must stand!
Not AGAINST those who oppose, but for what we believe IN!!
For:
Slave Hymns and Native Winds
Gay Rights and Civil Fights
Radicalism and Afrocentrism
H.I.V. and Children In Need
Feminism and Student Activism
Immigration and Gentrification
Change the Station!!
Burst bubbles and start trouble!!
Protest with No rest!!
Take a stand, we all fight for the common good.
Take these plans to your families, your campus, your hood.
“Your Community is My Community”
“Light up the darkness”
Peace.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
yep...
I never realized how much i use time in my poetry...
"Lets Spend Some Time"
Lets spend some time.
Let my... eyes inhale in your divine beauty,
because truly the smell of you on my pillow
is what helps me wake up in the morning,
reminiscing on the night before. You---
Might be more to me than some jump off,
i dont know maybe my heart has gone soft,
but i cant let this one slip away....
Is this the day where i wake up expecting to
see you, only to breathe through a sigh of
despair when you're not there?
I need you and its not fair.
From here the road to the future is not clear,
and in the past my heart has fought fear.
A losing battle, this is proving to be the
toughest thus far.
But I WILL win this war.
Peace.
"Time will tell"
At times I feel like a reflection of Her,
and staring at her I see a reflection of me.
But eventually, time will tell what it is that we really see.
In actuality, She is my escape, and I Hers.
In each other, We escape from Ourselves
and the hell that We battle with inside.
In this hell We call “home” its hard to
tell the real from the phony.
The only real thing I see is She. She is the truth,
so together We escape,
sexually and intellectually,
until We must part ways.
(The darker the days,
the more rain will fill these pages.)
But it has been said that “what is meant to be will be”
and this is destiny.
Time will tell…
Time has told,
and in this meeting of souls,
two star-crossed lovers unite to
watch their destiny unfold.
Peace.
"Lets Spend Some Time"
Lets spend some time.
Let my... eyes inhale in your divine beauty,
because truly the smell of you on my pillow
is what helps me wake up in the morning,
reminiscing on the night before. You---
Might be more to me than some jump off,
i dont know maybe my heart has gone soft,
but i cant let this one slip away....
Is this the day where i wake up expecting to
see you, only to breathe through a sigh of
despair when you're not there?
I need you and its not fair.
From here the road to the future is not clear,
and in the past my heart has fought fear.
A losing battle, this is proving to be the
toughest thus far.
But I WILL win this war.
Peace.
"Time will tell"
At times I feel like a reflection of Her,
and staring at her I see a reflection of me.
But eventually, time will tell what it is that we really see.
In actuality, She is my escape, and I Hers.
In each other, We escape from Ourselves
and the hell that We battle with inside.
In this hell We call “home” its hard to
tell the real from the phony.
The only real thing I see is She. She is the truth,
so together We escape,
sexually and intellectually,
until We must part ways.
(The darker the days,
the more rain will fill these pages.)
But it has been said that “what is meant to be will be”
and this is destiny.
Time will tell…
Time has told,
and in this meeting of souls,
two star-crossed lovers unite to
watch their destiny unfold.
Peace.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Long time no post...
But my twitters been poppin.
no time for a real update right now, but heres an old poem i found in a box while packing for my move...
Its written by a woman named Linda Ellis...
The Dash
ADM... how beautiful
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R.I.P. Jeff
no time for a real update right now, but heres an old poem i found in a box while packing for my move...
Its written by a woman named Linda Ellis...
The Dash
"I read of a man who stood up to speak at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone from beginning to the end.
He noted that first came the date of birth and spoke the following date with tears.
But said what mattered most of all was the dash between those years.
For that dash represents all the time that she had spent alive on this earth.
And now only those who loved her know her worth.
For it matters not how much we own, the cars, the house, the cash--
What matters most is how we live and love and how we spend our dash.
So think about it long and hard... are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left that can still be rearranged.
If we could just slow down enough to consider what is true and real,
And try to undertand the way other people feel.
Be less quick to anger and show appreciation more,
And love the people in our lives like we've never loved them before.
Treat each other with respect and more often wear a smile,
Remembering this special dasjh might only last awhile.
So when your eulogy is being read, with your life's actions to rehash,
Would you be proud of the things they say about how you spent your dash?"
ADM... how beautiful
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R.I.P. Jeff
Monday, July 13, 2009
The lost tweets...
"But you not finna blame your decisions and choices on me... Not at all"
"wow what a way to wake up"
"wow what a way to wake up"
Love vs. Money
Love vs. Money: Part 2 Lyrics
LOVE VS MONEY PART 2
Ehhh Ehhh
Oh... The name of money
Oh yeah...yeah...yeah e (whatever The Dream)
You...you can't say that I really didn't love you (ahaaahhh)
There's a newnew new new new way back for everytime that I touched you (haaahhh)
Quit acting like I'm the only one to blame, honey
Didn't hear you scream "no!" when you was trickin' off my money
But you left me here to clean up your dirty laundry, oh yeah
So kiss that nigga, hug that nigga,
love that nigga to death
Go ahead and please that nigga, feed that nigga
In time you'll see the problem's yourself
Coz when love is your problem...nothing can solve it
When love is the problem (eh!)...money can't solve it
When love is your problem (eh!)...nothing can solve it
When love is your problem (eh!)...no man can solve it,
Love is your problem
Now youyou you can't look back at all the shit you've done
To her love's a jail, so so so so so so so she stays on the run
You give her money, she wan't love
You give her love, she's back at money
She'll run from man to man, making plans to plan
No secretes, ya'll know who we're talkin' bout
Coz when love is your problem (eh! ohho ho!)...nothing can solve it
When love is the problem (there ain't nothing X3) (eh!)...money can't solve it
When love is your problem...nothing can solve it (nothing can so
When love is your problem (eh!)...no man can solve it,
Love is your problem
Oh nothing...can solve it, solve it, ho oh (ho oh) X2
I wonder if you'll ever take the responsibility of what you already done
By the time you figure out that she's not the one, three years that went by,
nigga you're done
You're done, you're done, you're done (ho oh!) (oh no no no nono)
Nigga you're done, you're done, you're done (ho oh!)
Ehh! you're done, you're done, you're done
Ehh! You're done, you're done, (yeah) you're done
You can't have her back............
Friday, July 10, 2009
More RTs
-"More than what you bargained for. But was it really worth gambling with in the first place? If its something you can put up on the table,"
-"Then you must not be too uncomfortable with losing it forever..."
-"It easy to put on that poker face, but the cards never lie. Eventually you have to show your hand. Unless you fold that is..."
-"Stop!! The love you save might be your own. Darling take it slow..."
-"No confusion... I know what I want out of life... Do you?"
*...sigh...*
lets put a smile on this face...
RT @DeePhunk: "SIT YOUR LOW BUDGET BEHIND DOWN BEFORE I EASILY PURCHASE IT W/ GOV'T-PROVIDED FOOD STAMPS!" #1stdraftmovielines
(Sit yo 5 dollar ass down before i make change)
-"all i have is my testicular fortitude and my credibility, and i wont sacrifice them for anybody!" #1stdraftmovielines
(All i have is my balls and my word, and i dont break em for no one)
-"daaaammn!!! you got hit REAAALY hard!" #1stdraftmovielines
(Daaayymmnn! You got knocked the FUCK OUT!!)
-"Would anyone else like to engage in fisticuffs with Deebo?" #1stdraftmovielines
(Who else wants some of Deebo?)
I like my versions better, lol.
Video of the day:
-"Then you must not be too uncomfortable with losing it forever..."
-"It easy to put on that poker face, but the cards never lie. Eventually you have to show your hand. Unless you fold that is..."
-"Stop!! The love you save might be your own. Darling take it slow..."
-"No confusion... I know what I want out of life... Do you?"
*...sigh...*
lets put a smile on this face...
RT @DeePhunk: "SIT YOUR LOW BUDGET BEHIND DOWN BEFORE I EASILY PURCHASE IT W/ GOV'T-PROVIDED FOOD STAMPS!" #1stdraftmovielines
(Sit yo 5 dollar ass down before i make change)
-"all i have is my testicular fortitude and my credibility, and i wont sacrifice them for anybody!" #1stdraftmovielines
(All i have is my balls and my word, and i dont break em for no one)
-"daaaammn!!! you got hit REAAALY hard!" #1stdraftmovielines
(Daaayymmnn! You got knocked the FUCK OUT!!)
-"Would anyone else like to engage in fisticuffs with Deebo?" #1stdraftmovielines
(Who else wants some of Deebo?)
I like my versions better, lol.
Video of the day:
RT/Wiki...
RT:
-"Has learned that no one can truly MAKE you feel guilty... guilt is more of a person acknowledging that they have broken a moral standard."
-"I was wrong in saying that i felt guilt tripped into going tonight, because i was not being the best person i could be..."
-"and any guilt i feel is really of my own doing... had i been the friend that i should have, i wouldnt have to feel guilty..."
-"we all make choices. and we just have to live with them... make sure you make the right ones..."
Wiki:
Guilt is a cognitive or an emotional experience that occurs when a person realizes or believes - whether justified or not - that he or she has violated a moral standard, and is responsible for that violation.[1] It is closely related to the concept of remorse.
In psychology, as well as in ordinary language, guilt is an affective state in which one experiences conflict at having done something that one believes one should not have done (or conversely, having not done something one believes one should have done). It gives rise to a feeling which does not go away easily, driven by 'conscience'. Sigmund Freud described this as the result of a struggle between the ego and the superego parental imprinting. Freud, an atheist, rejected the role of God as punisher in times of illness or rewarder in time of wellness. While removing one source of guilt from patients, he ironically added another. This was the unconscious force within the individual that may contribute to illness and also to the kind of so called accident that, until then had been attributed to God's will or simply bad luck. Today, as a result of Freud's views, even the victim of someone else's accident or bad luck may be offered criticism rather than comfort. The theory is that the victim may be at fault for having attracted the other person's hostility.[2] Guilt and its causes, merits, and demerits are common themes in psychology and psychiatry. It is often associated with anxiety, and sometimes depression. The philosopher Martin Buber underlined the difference between the Freudian notion of guilt, based on internal conflicts, and existential guilt, based on actual harm done to others.[3]
Veerry ee-Nteresting
Deuces. Vm
-"Has learned that no one can truly MAKE you feel guilty... guilt is more of a person acknowledging that they have broken a moral standard."
-"I was wrong in saying that i felt guilt tripped into going tonight, because i was not being the best person i could be..."
-"and any guilt i feel is really of my own doing... had i been the friend that i should have, i wouldnt have to feel guilty..."
-"we all make choices. and we just have to live with them... make sure you make the right ones..."
Wiki:
Guilt is a cognitive or an emotional experience that occurs when a person realizes or believes - whether justified or not - that he or she has violated a moral standard, and is responsible for that violation.[1] It is closely related to the concept of remorse.
In psychology, as well as in ordinary language, guilt is an affective state in which one experiences conflict at having done something that one believes one should not have done (or conversely, having not done something one believes one should have done). It gives rise to a feeling which does not go away easily, driven by 'conscience'. Sigmund Freud described this as the result of a struggle between the ego and the superego parental imprinting. Freud, an atheist, rejected the role of God as punisher in times of illness or rewarder in time of wellness. While removing one source of guilt from patients, he ironically added another. This was the unconscious force within the individual that may contribute to illness and also to the kind of so called accident that, until then had been attributed to God's will or simply bad luck. Today, as a result of Freud's views, even the victim of someone else's accident or bad luck may be offered criticism rather than comfort. The theory is that the victim may be at fault for having attracted the other person's hostility.[2] Guilt and its causes, merits, and demerits are common themes in psychology and psychiatry. It is often associated with anxiety, and sometimes depression. The philosopher Martin Buber underlined the difference between the Freudian notion of guilt, based on internal conflicts, and existential guilt, based on actual harm done to others.[3]
Veerry ee-Nteresting
Deuces. Vm
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
RT pt. 2
'Every1 wants 2 feel loved & wanted. So why do we sometimes allow ourselves to be devoid of it, when there is someone out there who wants u?'
'It sucks feeling like no one is interested in you'
'Its so hard to find the confidence to proceed when your heart is empty...'
'Everybody needs it. So why do I feel like the only one who doesn't have it?'
ugh. i need to stop bitching on twitter... but i do like being able to revisit random thoughts that pop in my head throughout the day.
i dunno. i guess lately i havent felt that connection with anybody. i feel... empty for lack of a better word. for her its easy. a beautiful girl like herself is going to have guys stepping on each other to give her some sort of attention. as they have been.
but me...
i have to fight for it. i have to go and initiate convo, get rejected, etc. etc. why put myself through all this for attention from someone i dont even know? to this day, there hasnt been one person who really showed any interest in me outside of physical attraction. but im so much more than that. and thats not what im looking for anyway. I guess it has something to do with the fact that i dont want to fight for anything but her. things arent always as simple as we would like them to be.
ADM... what makes it even harder is still having to play the best friend role and listen to the stories about whats going on. i mean, dont get me wrong, i love being her best friend, but thats a very tough pill to swallow. especially under the current circumstances.
besides, i realize that ive ALWAYS played the best friend role to the girl that i was interested in. only to hear about how much this guy did this, and that guy was a jerk, and the one who will do right by you is sitting right here, heartbroken that you have to go through all of this. ive played this position too many times in the past, and i dont know if i can keep this up any longer.
whats even worse is trying to voice all this... only to be ignored once again.
Its ok... blogger ALWAYS listens to me.
so... what to do... I see her in 2 days. maybe things will be looking better by then. then again, im always saying maybe. hopefully, possibly, perhaps, by chance... all synonymous with having faith.
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its getting harder and harder to stop that faith from shaking...
no matter what I say...
'It sucks feeling like no one is interested in you'
'Its so hard to find the confidence to proceed when your heart is empty...'
'Everybody needs it. So why do I feel like the only one who doesn't have it?'
ugh. i need to stop bitching on twitter... but i do like being able to revisit random thoughts that pop in my head throughout the day.
i dunno. i guess lately i havent felt that connection with anybody. i feel... empty for lack of a better word. for her its easy. a beautiful girl like herself is going to have guys stepping on each other to give her some sort of attention. as they have been.
but me...
i have to fight for it. i have to go and initiate convo, get rejected, etc. etc. why put myself through all this for attention from someone i dont even know? to this day, there hasnt been one person who really showed any interest in me outside of physical attraction. but im so much more than that. and thats not what im looking for anyway. I guess it has something to do with the fact that i dont want to fight for anything but her. things arent always as simple as we would like them to be.
ADM... what makes it even harder is still having to play the best friend role and listen to the stories about whats going on. i mean, dont get me wrong, i love being her best friend, but thats a very tough pill to swallow. especially under the current circumstances.
besides, i realize that ive ALWAYS played the best friend role to the girl that i was interested in. only to hear about how much this guy did this, and that guy was a jerk, and the one who will do right by you is sitting right here, heartbroken that you have to go through all of this. ive played this position too many times in the past, and i dont know if i can keep this up any longer.
whats even worse is trying to voice all this... only to be ignored once again.
Its ok... blogger ALWAYS listens to me.
so... what to do... I see her in 2 days. maybe things will be looking better by then. then again, im always saying maybe. hopefully, possibly, perhaps, by chance... all synonymous with having faith.
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its getting harder and harder to stop that faith from shaking...
no matter what I say...
Monday, June 29, 2009
Quotes...
Action is a great restorer and builder of confidence. Inaction is not only the result, but the cause, of fear. Perhaps the action you take will be successful; perhaps different action or adjustments will have to follow. But any action is better than no action at all. - Norman Vincent Peale
Creative risk taking is essential to success in any goal where the stakes are high. Thoughtless risks are destructive, of course, but perhaps even more wasteful is thoughtless caution which prompts inaction and promotes failure to seize opportunity. - Gary Ryan Blair
Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy. - Dale Carnegie
Inaction is perhaps the greatest mistake of all.
Charles Schumer
Inaction may be safe, but it builds nothing.
Dave Freudenthal
The price of inaction is far greater than the cost of making a mistake.
Meister Eckhart
There are risks and costs to action. But they are far less than the long range risks of comfortable inaction.
John F. Kennedy
Use the losses and failures of the past as a reason for action, not inaction.
Charles J. Givens
Creative risk taking is essential to success in any goal where the stakes are high. Thoughtless risks are destructive, of course, but perhaps even more wasteful is thoughtless caution which prompts inaction and promotes failure to seize opportunity. - Gary Ryan Blair
Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy. - Dale Carnegie
Inaction is perhaps the greatest mistake of all.
Charles Schumer
Inaction may be safe, but it builds nothing.
Dave Freudenthal
The price of inaction is far greater than the cost of making a mistake.
Meister Eckhart
There are risks and costs to action. But they are far less than the long range risks of comfortable inaction.
John F. Kennedy
Use the losses and failures of the past as a reason for action, not inaction.
Charles J. Givens
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
The words to this song are deep...
In Portuguese:
Muita Bobeira" lyrics
Acho que não vou deixar você sair da minha vida
Sei que você vai gostar de estar no meio dessa briga
O que passou foi bom de mais pra nós dois
Nosso destino é decifrar uma saÃda
Só você pode evitar o meu tormento
Já não consigo tirar você do meu pensamento
Se você passa, eu me desmancho em dor
Se você fica, eu quero dar o meu amor
Dentro de toda história assim: começo meio e fim
Outra vez
Talvez
Talvez uma chance, um não, um sim
Fazer você voltar pra mim
Voltar pra mim, voltar pra mim
Eu vou lutar por você a vida inteira
Mesmo que venha fazer muita bobeira
Se você passa, eu me desmancho em dor
Se você fica, eu quero dar o meu amor
Rough English Translation:
Much Bobeira
I find that I do not go to leave you to leave my life I know that you go to like to be in the way of this fight
What he passed we were good of more pra two Our destination we are to decipher an exit
You only can prevent my torment Already I do not obtain to take off you of my thought
If you pass, I you disarrange yourself in pain If you are, I you want to give my love
Inside of all history thus: start half e end Another time
Perhaps
Perhaps a possibility, not, one yes
To make you to come back pra me To come back pra me, to come back pra me
I go to fight for you the entire life Exactly that he comes to make much bobeira
If you pass, I you disarrange yourself in pain If you are, I you want to give my love
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Feelin these songs...
beast drummer...
beast pianist...
all around good song.
speaking of good songs
(since all versions of "The way you make me feel" on youtube do not allow you to embed)
*sigh* R.I.P. Michael Jackson
She'll appreciate this one
Dope.
Keep it goin man...
Wrote & Recorded this one a while ago... had to redo it once the HP crashed, but now its redone, and i stepped up my Video editing game in the process... hope you enjoy!!
RT (subconcious self-destruction?)
-Life is a ride... Buckle up, Cuz i'm takin it to the Max!! For those riding with me just know that we will have our ups and downs, pitfalls and turnarounds, but i truly appreciate your company and support.
-It sucks when you try to express how something makes you feel... and the other person is completely indifferent.
-Its so hard to reconcile with someone when you arent even given the time of day!
-yet its so easy to flip it on the person who is getting ignored.
RT:
-some ppl will say what they wana say regardless of how it makes u feel!
2 minutes earlier...
"WE'RE NOT EVEN TOGETHER RIGHT NOW!!"
...all i wanted was to talk.
P.S. WTF?!? How did i let the tables turn on me that quick? I went from "lemme just stop this convo now before it goes any futher" to "dont hang up on me" in like 3 minutes... FML.
-It sucks when you try to express how something makes you feel... and the other person is completely indifferent.
-Its so hard to reconcile with someone when you arent even given the time of day!
-yet its so easy to flip it on the person who is getting ignored.
RT:
-some ppl will say what they wana say regardless of how it makes u feel!
2 minutes earlier...
"WE'RE NOT EVEN TOGETHER RIGHT NOW!!"
...all i wanted was to talk.
P.S. WTF?!? How did i let the tables turn on me that quick? I went from "lemme just stop this convo now before it goes any futher" to "dont hang up on me" in like 3 minutes... FML.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Wow...
I have the # 6 ranked first name in the United States and the # 3,446 ranked full name in the country according to the white pages... how boring.
Meanwhile. Check out this artist who weaves aluminum and other recyclable mediums...

Dope.

Check out his site here... http://www.aseempereira.com/photos1.html
Meanwhile. Check out this artist who weaves aluminum and other recyclable mediums...

Dope.

Check out his site here... http://www.aseempereira.com/photos1.html
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Hot...
Damn yall.. we burned Soapbox fridays DOWN tonight. The vibe in there was incredible...
Check some footage...
Click on the icon in the video screen or go to http://qik.com/splinter to see more...
Check some footage...
Click on the icon in the video screen or go to http://qik.com/splinter to see more...
Friday, June 19, 2009
just something to think about...
So. i had a dream last night that i could leave my body, or astrally project for those up on game... but it was strange. I ended up switching bodies with someone and living in thier shoes for a day. just a day. Kinda like on some Freaky Friday stuff. but in switching i learned a great deal about the person who i switched with. and the troubles that she (yes, She) goes through on a day to day basis. now how accurate these are, im not sure. but my most memorable dreams do always tend to have a strong hint of reality behind them...
So. what would you do if you could really switch with someone for a day? not just their shoes, but their face as well?
would you use it for good? or for evil?
i know theres someone out there that would use it to their advantage and try to get away with something they knew they couldnt otherwise... cant say i wouldnt be tempted to.
So. what would you do if you could really switch with someone for a day? not just their shoes, but their face as well?
would you use it for good? or for evil?
i know theres someone out there that would use it to their advantage and try to get away with something they knew they couldnt otherwise... cant say i wouldnt be tempted to.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Update...
whats goin on blogland!? nothing much over here. its been so long since i did a real entry, i figured it was about time.
So the last couple days has been like the best/worst roller coaster ive ever been on:
- I found out that HU cleared my account, but my job tells me that i wont get my check until the 26th.
- I find tix to N.O. for CHEAP! but i dont have the $$$ to buy them at this point.
- Me and my significant other are more back and forth than Aaliyah on a swingset.
Ay Dios Mios...
Hopefully things will be looking up soon, i can finally send transcripts to other schools now that my account at HU is cleared, (isnt that the stupidest rule EVER?) so ive apllied to a few schools in N.O.
Im looking for other places of employment as well, because Fossil isnt giving me ANY type of real-world hours. im kind of glad my paycheck will have 4 weeks on it, just to make it look better. but hopefully ill get accepted to one of the other places im looking at now... (farm fresh, food lion, blockbuster, athletes foot & gamestop to name a few)
we'll see. theres so much else i want to get off my chest here but cant. not until this issue i am currently facing is resolved... i guess i can speak vaugely...
this is KILLING me inside. I try to do so much to make things happen the way I want them, only to be dissapointed and subsequently dissapoint others. I let my feelings about this situation affect the way I act towards people, And I always end up feeling like the bad guy even when Ive been recieving the same treatment. What can i do to make things right when words mean nothing? Action speak volumes, but something always happens to prevent them. Are these SIGNS, or just hurdles i need to clear to real my goal at the finish line? I mean, i'm down to run the race to the end, and im NOT willing to pass the baton, and let someone else walk away with the gold medal. I KNOW thats not how its supposed to be. I feel like I need to take a time out like Zach Morris or a bad Twix commercial. Just to figure out how to turn the tables in my favor. I mean... I feel like now they are. But i've felt this way before. "Ok! I'm gonna do thing #1 and thing #2, and THING #3 will happen!!!" Only to find out that I get evicted, preventing Thing #1, Thing #2required my account at HU to be cleared (which it is now, whoo-hoo!!), and THING #3 was TOTALLY dependent on Things #1 & #2.
(speaking vaguely about this situation is alot harder than i originally thought...)
Now things are looking like im in a better position to make things happen, but it may be too little, too late. except that i dont feel like i did too little but then again, i also didnt acheive my desired results. So where to go from here. Damage control? Fix whats broken. Can this sort of thing be mended? obviously not just by words, but by the aforementioned "Actions". "Actions" that were supposed to take place on friday, only to find out that i wont get my check till the NEXT pay period... (i know i mentioned it before, but its part of the story)
I dunno.
Hopefully the next few days will be a little more inspiring.
For some reason this thought keeps sticking in my head:
So I hope that means the sky is gettin ready to open up.
Ay... Time to wrap this up, ya'll can call me Reynolds.
Peace.
P.S. So... i need to get Mos Defs new album. Post haste.
P.P.S. she says i never got her flowers... how quickly we forget...
So the last couple days has been like the best/worst roller coaster ive ever been on:
- I found out that HU cleared my account, but my job tells me that i wont get my check until the 26th.
- I find tix to N.O. for CHEAP! but i dont have the $$$ to buy them at this point.
- Me and my significant other are more back and forth than Aaliyah on a swingset.
Ay Dios Mios...
Hopefully things will be looking up soon, i can finally send transcripts to other schools now that my account at HU is cleared, (isnt that the stupidest rule EVER?) so ive apllied to a few schools in N.O.
Im looking for other places of employment as well, because Fossil isnt giving me ANY type of real-world hours. im kind of glad my paycheck will have 4 weeks on it, just to make it look better. but hopefully ill get accepted to one of the other places im looking at now... (farm fresh, food lion, blockbuster, athletes foot & gamestop to name a few)
we'll see. theres so much else i want to get off my chest here but cant. not until this issue i am currently facing is resolved... i guess i can speak vaugely...
this is KILLING me inside. I try to do so much to make things happen the way I want them, only to be dissapointed and subsequently dissapoint others. I let my feelings about this situation affect the way I act towards people, And I always end up feeling like the bad guy even when Ive been recieving the same treatment. What can i do to make things right when words mean nothing? Action speak volumes, but something always happens to prevent them. Are these SIGNS, or just hurdles i need to clear to real my goal at the finish line? I mean, i'm down to run the race to the end, and im NOT willing to pass the baton, and let someone else walk away with the gold medal. I KNOW thats not how its supposed to be. I feel like I need to take a time out like Zach Morris or a bad Twix commercial. Just to figure out how to turn the tables in my favor. I mean... I feel like now they are. But i've felt this way before. "Ok! I'm gonna do thing #1 and thing #2, and THING #3 will happen!!!" Only to find out that I get evicted, preventing Thing #1, Thing #2required my account at HU to be cleared (which it is now, whoo-hoo!!), and THING #3 was TOTALLY dependent on Things #1 & #2.
(speaking vaguely about this situation is alot harder than i originally thought...)
Now things are looking like im in a better position to make things happen, but it may be too little, too late. except that i dont feel like i did too little but then again, i also didnt acheive my desired results. So where to go from here. Damage control? Fix whats broken. Can this sort of thing be mended? obviously not just by words, but by the aforementioned "Actions". "Actions" that were supposed to take place on friday, only to find out that i wont get my check till the NEXT pay period... (i know i mentioned it before, but its part of the story)
I dunno.
Hopefully the next few days will be a little more inspiring.
For some reason this thought keeps sticking in my head:
"Its always darkest just before the storm"
So I hope that means the sky is gettin ready to open up.
Ay... Time to wrap this up, ya'll can call me Reynolds.
Peace.
P.S. So... i need to get Mos Defs new album. Post haste.
P.P.S. she says i never got her flowers... how quickly we forget...
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
Thursday, June 11, 2009
and i dont even like Drake like that...
But I must admit, these 2 songs are pretty dope. that old-school hip hop feel with a few dope lyrics... i can vibe to it...
Smile - Drake feat. Voyce
Thrill Is Gone - Drake
Smile - Drake feat. Voyce
Thrill Is Gone - Drake
Monday, June 8, 2009
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Rest In Peace

So i made a visit yesterday... Saw an old friend. And I think thats what my dream was about. I hadnt been to his grave yet... and I definately needed to so I could stop living in denial of the fact that Jeff is no longer with us. Stop expecting to see him walk in the room at any given moment.
Just...
...Accept it.
Its just too hard to considering how great of a person Jeff was ya know?
Acceptance is tough...
Peace.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Scary...
Why do i keep having this same dream over and over again?
I knock on a door expecting a get-together or party of some sort... and when it opens ...its Jeff.
Just standing there.
Silent.
I break into tears saying "im sorry, im sorry"
He stares at me for a while, takes a deep breath and finally says "its ok. its not you fault..."
I walk in and the door shuts, but all i can see is the outside of the door, and then everything fades away...
WHAT DOES IT MEAN!?!?!?
I knock on a door expecting a get-together or party of some sort... and when it opens ...its Jeff.
Just standing there.
Silent.
I break into tears saying "im sorry, im sorry"
He stares at me for a while, takes a deep breath and finally says "its ok. its not you fault..."
I walk in and the door shuts, but all i can see is the outside of the door, and then everything fades away...
WHAT DOES IT MEAN!?!?!?
Monday, June 1, 2009
Listen
WHOO I figured out how to embed it... I wonder why i wasnt working before... Oh well.
I think i'm bout to put a couple of my peices up here... Thats a task for tomorrow however. Look out for me!
Peace.
I think i'm bout to put a couple of my peices up here... Thats a task for tomorrow however. Look out for me!
Peace.
Word Seth MacFarlane?
Episode: "The Man With Two Brians"
Premise: Peter brings home another dog that he also names 'Brian'
Upon introducing the new dog, Brian #1 makes it known that he does not like Brian #2.
(What follows has to be one of the most racist jokes i've ever seen on Family Guy...)
Peter: "Trust me, you guys are gonna get along better than Abraham Lincoln and his neighbor!"
**Flashback**
Abe Lincoln: "Hey Dale, I noticed that your lawn is getting a little high..."
Dale: "Yeah, I used to have a guy for that... Dick!"
** **
Damn. Thats fucked up... even for Family Guy. I would expect that on South Park, but Seth MacFarlane is just going all out with it now, huh?
Damn... after typing all that i just found the link :-/ Oh well.
Family Guy: Abe Lincoln's Neighbor
Premise: Peter brings home another dog that he also names 'Brian'
Upon introducing the new dog, Brian #1 makes it known that he does not like Brian #2.
(What follows has to be one of the most racist jokes i've ever seen on Family Guy...)
Peter: "Trust me, you guys are gonna get along better than Abraham Lincoln and his neighbor!"
**Flashback**
Abe Lincoln: "Hey Dale, I noticed that your lawn is getting a little high..."
Dale: "Yeah, I used to have a guy for that... Dick!"
** **
Damn. Thats fucked up... even for Family Guy. I would expect that on South Park, but Seth MacFarlane is just going all out with it now, huh?
Damn... after typing all that i just found the link :-/ Oh well.
Family Guy: Abe Lincoln's Neighbor
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
restless
Restless...
Its early in the AM and my minds racin',
Im facin' wines while i'm pacin'.
The birds outside which i usually despise
sing the sweetest lullabyes.
Sometimes i wish i could see the skies through their eyes,
its simplified, just get high and be fly.
I guess we are similar in that sense,
but when i tweet i typically vent.
When my actions aren't understood the way that they're meant,
and i look in the bank and every dollar is spent.
Life seems so simple from the back steps of the wrap-around porch,
as i sit flickin my BIC like a torch, pullin blacks till my lungs scorch.
These things are gonna kill me one day, but its the only thing that helps me keep my sanity,
when my humanity is comprimised and nothing is how it was planned to be.
My sincerty is looked upon as a rarity,
but through the looking glass, you are bound to see the clarity.
Being me is often something that i am scared to be,
but a failure is never something i am prepared to be.
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Damn, my morning poetry sucks, plus i havent really been in my poetic mind lately.
As you can see my mind is everywhere this morning.
No form, no thematic rhyme scheme, nothing. Just... words.
I def need to rekindle that side of me. (more poetry about her? that always puts me in the right state of mind...)
But then again... Anything about her at this point would just be... sad.
AHHH!! i just want to be happy in my own skin!!!
*sigh*
FML.
Relapse/Blackout 2
Lately i feel like she's here but not really... Like she'd rather be somewhere else right now, and she's just biding her time here. :-/ What do i do? Any attempt to do anything with her is waived off. And when i do manage to peake her interest, i screw it up so bad that we end up arguing about my 'not taking her into consideration' when everything i do is in her name!!
and yes, i get frustrated when my attempts to spend time together are not even given a first chance, let alone a second. Which is very childish of me, but whatever i'll get over it.
Is it me? What am i boring or something? Please let me know. All i know is for the past 2 or 3 days, i can barely get her attention away from this damn computer. As if twitter, facebook, and MTO held the key to happiness. i dunno, maybe they do. but as of now they capture her eyes so much that ive nearly forgotten what they look like.
and then in the end, im STILL the bad guy for getting upset at this. the bad guy for wanting to spend a little time doing something i enjoy with her. after she sat on the computer all day IGNORING me, i ask her to sit down and play a little video game with me, and al of a sudden its "why do we always have to do what you want to do?" I go, i do everything she asks, and yet its still not enough. It never is... What more do i have to do? What more can i do?
and yes, i get frustrated when my attempts to spend time together are not even given a first chance, let alone a second. Which is very childish of me, but whatever i'll get over it.
Is it me? What am i boring or something? Please let me know. All i know is for the past 2 or 3 days, i can barely get her attention away from this damn computer. As if twitter, facebook, and MTO held the key to happiness. i dunno, maybe they do. but as of now they capture her eyes so much that ive nearly forgotten what they look like.
*sigh*
and then in the end, im STILL the bad guy for getting upset at this. the bad guy for wanting to spend a little time doing something i enjoy with her. after she sat on the computer all day IGNORING me, i ask her to sit down and play a little video game with me, and al of a sudden its "why do we always have to do what you want to do?" I go, i do everything she asks, and yet its still not enough. It never is... What more do i have to do? What more can i do?
Peace...
Monday, May 18, 2009
insight...
(A cpl of days ago... written in my phone, lol)
lately I cant seem to stop hurting her. Emotionally, physically or whatever. And even though its always unintentional, That doesn't change anything. She's still hurt, and i Can't ever take that pain away once shes felt it. Its like no matter what i do she ends up getting her feelings hurt, or ends up with her foot caught on the door. And any attempts to help only make matters that much worse. Maybe i just need to stop trying to be everything to everyone at the same time and focus on what im doing currently. Cuz im wearing myself thin trying to please everyone. I mean i have always been the person that just wants everyone to be happy, but at what cost? My OWN happiness? My OWN SANITY? It seems like everyone has a plan for my life except for me. everyone has an opinion on what i should do with my future. As the great method man says,
"opinions are like assholes, everybody got to have one."
So true... (Btw... When did she write in my book?) im through listening to everyone's advice but my own. Listening to what everyone else thinks instead of paying attention to what my own heart already knows. So... I will follow it. And not them.
*sigh*
it feels so good saying that.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Bedside Blogging
So... G.P. is here.
Everything is right with the world... lol. i was going through some serious withdrawls without having her by my side every day. i think last night was some of the best sleep ive goten in the last 4 months. now i feel like im back on my regular sleep schedule... and all i had to do was hold her.
*sigh*
unfortunately this will probably be the fastest week ive ever experienced. def gonna need to fig out some more travel arrangements soon. cant do the 10-week separation thing again...
umm...
(...what else is new?...)
Oh yeah! i have a couple of really promising job offers. nothing too serious though, just a couple of spots in mcaurthur that are looking for people. i rocked the interview today so hard that they scheduled my 2nd interview on the spot for tomorrow.
i'm hungry :-( luckily there is some leftovers from the dinner nai made today! YAY!
anyway... i'll keep this short like martin.... martin short.
Peace!!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
UToobed...
So... I youtubed myself...
put down 3 verses on the webcam.
dont know how far imma go with this though.
depends on the response i get from the first one.
Here it goes...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Fr6Ryt8V04
That is all...
Peace.
P.S. Maybe i'll put some poetry down on this camera too... =-)
put down 3 verses on the webcam.
dont know how far imma go with this though.
depends on the response i get from the first one.
Here it goes...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Fr6Ryt8V04
That is all...
Peace.
P.S. Maybe i'll put some poetry down on this camera too... =-)
Monday, May 4, 2009
the sound of your voice painted on my memories...
So i'm reading all of my old OLD blogs on zanga and i started to see all of the shit i was so sad and depressed over was so... pointless. like shit i have forgotten about now. made me think " so the shit i get sad about now... is this pointless too?" cuz im just gonna forget about it in a few months probably... UGH, those blogs were scary. As i was reading them it didnt even feel like i was the one who wrote them.
I also realized what musical taste i had back in the day. I cant remember whens the last time I listened to a Linkin Park Album. I also forgot how fuckin' lyrical Mike Chinoda is/was... Check it:
"perform labotomies with telekenetic psychology" What?!? ILL!!! lol
saw some funny aim covos that i posted too:
HughJazzJohnson9: Maybe
***********: no maybe
***********: u have a problem
HughJazzJohnson9: is it a crime to bee addicted to a TV show
***********: is it a crime to be a alcoholic?
HughJazzJohnson9: well watching family guy doesnt intoxicate you
HughJazzJohnson9: although
HughJazzJohnson9: it does make you feel all tingly inside
***********: LMAO
***********: yeah hun
***********: u got a problem
HughJazzJohnson9: well
HughJazzJohnson9: there aare ppl worse off than me
HughJazzJohnson9: i havent went out and bought any merchandise
HughJazzJohnson9: although
HughJazzJohnson9: i do plan to
**********: tryflin
I guess i did have a little family guy obsession goin on, huh? lol... cant really say that a bad thing though
...*sigh*...
my sleep patterns have been horribly disturbed over the past week. not saying they were all that great in the first place, but now one night, i'll sleep all day and the next im up for 2 days straight. I dont know what to do to get them back on track. when im not sleepy i cant sleep. but i cant make myself wake up when im sleeping too long. for real though, i slept for 13 hours yesterday. Straight. now granted, I wasn't feeling good. and i was exhausted, but still... 13 HOURS?!? Thats what i call sleeping recklessly. lol. i dunno, Nai will be here in a few days. hopefully she can put me to sleep at a decent hour. ;-)
my sister has been in NC for the past 2 weeks and has SEVERELY overstayed her welcome.
so heres the story:
she calls herself visiting an old friend from middle school. we'll call him (dont ask) "Dave". "Dave" invites her down to stay at his mothers house, not taking into account the fact that 1.) he didnt even ask his mother and 2.) him and his mother are staying in a hotel temporarily b/c they was a fire at their house. Now, knowing this, why would you want to go and stay with someone who is in that type of situation? I understand seeing family for maybe a weekend, but a hotel room is way too confined to be staying with someone. ESPECIALLY not for 2 weeks!
So his mother calls my mother this morning. I picked up the phone at first, and she really had an attitude with my mom. keep in mind she doesnt even know that "Dave" invited my sister. She also doesnt know that me and my mother BOTH told my sister she shouldnt go, given their current living situation. But you cant tell swiss anything cuz she always "knows what she's doing", but she hates i told you so moments. (i'd be rich right now if i had a dollar... u know how the old cliche goes, lol.) she had NO INTENTIONS of coming back until she goes into the military... for someone as smart as her, she really makes some dumb decisions. but she thinks she's in "LOVE" so instead of attending one of the MANY schools that are practically begging her to be a part of their program, she would rather go into the military b/c that way, her and boyfriend can be together. Mind you, this idiot has failed so many times that hes about to age out of NPS systems... I mean he would age out if he hadn't of DROPPED OUT!! I gotta get rid of this chump... no aspirations, no goals. He doesnt even have a plan to get his GED. Im sorry, but he's just not good enough for my sister. its sad when you can see the negative effects of one person on another, with no positive effects to outweigh the bad.
*gotta cut the comp off... bad storm outside... finish later*
so yeah, i gave my sis some money to catch a bus back to VA. She HATES admitting when she made a mistake. She'll learn, one day... hopefully
so... its 9:30. almost birthday time for me. ...yay... <~~~(see my enthusiasm?)
i didnt realize how long this figgin post was... so i'll wrap it up here.
Peace.
I also realized what musical taste i had back in the day. I cant remember whens the last time I listened to a Linkin Park Album. I also forgot how fuckin' lyrical Mike Chinoda is/was... Check it:
"perform labotomies with telekenetic psychology" What?!? ILL!!! lol
saw some funny aim covos that i posted too:
HughJazzJohnson9: Maybe
***********: no maybe
***********: u have a problem
HughJazzJohnson9: is it a crime to bee addicted to a TV show
***********: is it a crime to be a alcoholic?
HughJazzJohnson9: well watching family guy doesnt intoxicate you
HughJazzJohnson9: although
HughJazzJohnson9: it does make you feel all tingly inside
***********: LMAO
***********: yeah hun
***********: u got a problem
HughJazzJohnson9: well
HughJazzJohnson9: there aare ppl worse off than me
HughJazzJohnson9: i havent went out and bought any merchandise
HughJazzJohnson9: although
HughJazzJohnson9: i do plan to
**********: tryflin
I guess i did have a little family guy obsession goin on, huh? lol... cant really say that a bad thing though
...*sigh*...
my sleep patterns have been horribly disturbed over the past week. not saying they were all that great in the first place, but now one night, i'll sleep all day and the next im up for 2 days straight. I dont know what to do to get them back on track. when im not sleepy i cant sleep. but i cant make myself wake up when im sleeping too long. for real though, i slept for 13 hours yesterday. Straight. now granted, I wasn't feeling good. and i was exhausted, but still... 13 HOURS?!? Thats what i call sleeping recklessly. lol. i dunno, Nai will be here in a few days. hopefully she can put me to sleep at a decent hour. ;-)
my sister has been in NC for the past 2 weeks and has SEVERELY overstayed her welcome.
so heres the story:
she calls herself visiting an old friend from middle school. we'll call him (dont ask) "Dave". "Dave" invites her down to stay at his mothers house, not taking into account the fact that 1.) he didnt even ask his mother and 2.) him and his mother are staying in a hotel temporarily b/c they was a fire at their house. Now, knowing this, why would you want to go and stay with someone who is in that type of situation? I understand seeing family for maybe a weekend, but a hotel room is way too confined to be staying with someone. ESPECIALLY not for 2 weeks!
So his mother calls my mother this morning. I picked up the phone at first, and she really had an attitude with my mom. keep in mind she doesnt even know that "Dave" invited my sister. She also doesnt know that me and my mother BOTH told my sister she shouldnt go, given their current living situation. But you cant tell swiss anything cuz she always "knows what she's doing", but she hates i told you so moments. (i'd be rich right now if i had a dollar... u know how the old cliche goes, lol.) she had NO INTENTIONS of coming back until she goes into the military... for someone as smart as her, she really makes some dumb decisions. but she thinks she's in "LOVE" so instead of attending one of the MANY schools that are practically begging her to be a part of their program, she would rather go into the military b/c that way, her and boyfriend can be together. Mind you, this idiot has failed so many times that hes about to age out of NPS systems... I mean he would age out if he hadn't of DROPPED OUT!! I gotta get rid of this chump... no aspirations, no goals. He doesnt even have a plan to get his GED. Im sorry, but he's just not good enough for my sister. its sad when you can see the negative effects of one person on another, with no positive effects to outweigh the bad.
*gotta cut the comp off... bad storm outside... finish later*
so yeah, i gave my sis some money to catch a bus back to VA. She HATES admitting when she made a mistake. She'll learn, one day... hopefully
so... its 9:30. almost birthday time for me. ...yay... <~~~(see my enthusiasm?)
i didnt realize how long this figgin post was... so i'll wrap it up here.
Peace.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
23...
wow...
LOOONG time no blog. As I sit here and blog on this amazing computer my mother just purchased for herself (HP TouchSmart IQ1500), im realizing that i will be turning 23 years old in just a matter of days and i have NOTHING to show for it.
where do i go from here?
Hamptons dickin me over a barrell...
they're tryna act REAL funny style with the money right now, and i am quickly losing the patience to deal with them. why everytime i come to check on the shit, you gotta "check your emails" how many times can you use the same excuse? and then call yourself trying to recruit me for section leader with the same lil bullshit $6K? when i could CLEARLY be getting a full ride ANYWHERE else...
I need Nai in my life...
video chatting with her just makes me miss all her little mannerisms. and the 75% of nonverbal communication we currently lack while using our anytime minutes... Ay Dios Mios!!
She'll be here on the 11th. Im counting down the days!
Umm...
What else? oh, i did an open mic at this spot out in Newport News last friday. It was kinda dope. had a real nice vibe to it. i definately wanted to go back this friday, but i guess it wasnt in the cards for me that day. So next week is a definate must.
Oh Yeah, I went to see X-men: Wolverine today. Great movie, definitely wasnt expecting them to be walking down on bourbon street though.
ay... Its getting late. like 6am late... loo late to stay up and blog about random nothingness....
ttyl kiddies...
LOOONG time no blog. As I sit here and blog on this amazing computer my mother just purchased for herself (HP TouchSmart IQ1500), im realizing that i will be turning 23 years old in just a matter of days and i have NOTHING to show for it.
where do i go from here?
Hamptons dickin me over a barrell...
they're tryna act REAL funny style with the money right now, and i am quickly losing the patience to deal with them. why everytime i come to check on the shit, you gotta "check your emails" how many times can you use the same excuse? and then call yourself trying to recruit me for section leader with the same lil bullshit $6K? when i could CLEARLY be getting a full ride ANYWHERE else...
$$$$$$$$...
Jobs applied for: several
Jobs attained: none
So i seriously considered cutting my locks since my last post. i comprimised it down to trimming the beard. im just tired of being judged as something that im not just off of first appearances. well... im not cutting my locks for the working world so thats out of the picture. but what i can control is this bushwick bill beard on my face. hopefully itll get me somewhere...
I need Nai in my life...
video chatting with her just makes me miss all her little mannerisms. and the 75% of nonverbal communication we currently lack while using our anytime minutes... Ay Dios Mios!!
She'll be here on the 11th. Im counting down the days!
Umm...
What else? oh, i did an open mic at this spot out in Newport News last friday. It was kinda dope. had a real nice vibe to it. i definately wanted to go back this friday, but i guess it wasnt in the cards for me that day. So next week is a definate must.
Oh Yeah, I went to see X-men: Wolverine today. Great movie, definitely wasnt expecting them to be walking down on bourbon street though.
ay... Its getting late. like 6am late... loo late to stay up and blog about random nothingness....
ttyl kiddies...
Monday, April 20, 2009
I ran across this while writing this paper on ancient Kemetian philosophy, and how it was stolen by the Greeks and claimed as their own.
This passage is from one of the Antef kings during the 11th dynasty defining the sage and/or philosopher:
This passage is from one of the Antef kings during the 11th dynasty defining the sage and/or philosopher:
“He is one whose heart is informed about these things which would otherwise be ignored, the one who is clear sighted when he is deep into a problem, the one who is moderate in his actions, who penetrates ancient writings, who is sensible enough to unravel complications, who is really wise, who instructed his own heart, who stays awake at night as he looks for the right paths, who surpasses what he accomplised yesterday, who is wiser than a sage, who brought himself to wisdom, who asks for advice and sees to it that he is asked for advice.”
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Dope.
PEACE!
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